I had struggle with depression for a long time. I was compulsive overeating and my self esteem was really low. After a lot of treatments that didn't work I accepted my dad's suggestion of seeing a doctor that works with herbal medicine . He gave me a diet and some medication that would help my compulsion. I started to work out and eat as recommended - I lost 40 pounds in 5 months. I still want to lose 15 pounds so I can be on my ideal weight.
For the first time I was capable to follow through with a diet plan - I'm proud of myself.
My boyfriend helped me out a lot In the beginning, we would only go out to places with health food options and he would not order deserts (sweets are my weak spot).
At some point he got tired of only having health food in the house and started to buy a lot stuff that I had banned. I was kind of fine with that because as time passed it got easier for me to say no to things. But some days were hard - for two times I lost control and ate the junk food that was available. We fought a lot about that I said he should look after his health as well - he said I'm being too obsessed about health like I just found a new compulsion (it really got to me when he said that).
Then he started saying that he missed the times we would get drunk together (I stopped drinking) or I would eat something fun without worrying about what was in it. Last week we ate pizza and cake he was really happy and I felt sick after.
Worst of it he said if I keep losing weight I won't be prettier. He said that I was getting flaccid and my tits were smaller and less attractive. It really hurt me that he said that (because maybe is true and I'm insecure by nature).
We have been together for 3 years, I love him and don't want it to be over but I feel hurt. I don't know if he's right about me being too concerned or obsessive with health eating maybe he is. But I can't afford to go back being depressed and feeling I have no self control while compulsive eating junk.
TL;DR: I'm on a diet plan, my boyfriend is not supporting me anymore and thinks I became obsessed.
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