Long story short she just about drank every day. I wish i kept track of it to make myself feel better but that’s in the past. She was a very functional alcoholic and would only like to argue a lot. We had so much fun together for 7 years but it was mostly around the house watching TV, Movies, or Games. She had one job at the time but fell out of it.
To put things in context i got sick of the lack of drive, drinking, and arguing after one night where i got yelled at and decided to check out tinder. It was one night of a bad decision and i started talking to someone normal and nice. I got rid of the app and kept texting her for a few days until the SO found out. BIG drunken fight that involved throwing things and whatnot.
We moved past it for a year somehow, but i guess she didn’t. Decided she would be fine without me. This was after i got really injured for a month and she took care of me. So it was hard. I was happy again and she wasn’t. Can’t control that and it’s probably better for me in the long run to find just about anyone with a job, lack of anger, and nice person.
It’s just so hard to throw out 7 years of love. I know deep down this person was horrible to themselves and me. But i want to take care of them forever and make them better. Maybe that’s not possible. I’m sure plenty of people get caught in the web of alcohol on both sides of things and make it out together or separately. I just want the pain to end.
I’ve done some fun stuff, started working out for the first time since football in 9 years, and made some new connections. But i can’t stop dreaming about this person and hoping they are ok.
TLDR alcoholic non working loving girlfriend broke up with me a year after i emotionally cheated. Trying to get over it but can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel...
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