So. I’ve decided to post here due to the lack of unbiased people I have to talk about this. I want to hear an outsider’s opinion as I already feel I am being unfair to my husband and would like to stop from doing so the best that I can. We are both 22 with great jobs, dated for two years, married for eight months.
My husband and I lived in an apartment infested with spiders and in an utterly shitty condition. We rented this as we had no idea of the problems. A month in, or less, I developed severe OCD. I hated the spiders. I hated the uneven ceiling, the stained dirty floors, the yellow bathtub, everything. We hired an exterminator and that took care of the spiders. But the frantic cleaning kept going. I couldn’t stop and I couldn’t ever feel comfortable.
Well, at the beginning of this month, we moved into a beautiful apartment. Hardwood floors, renovated kitchen and bathroom, new rugs, new and fancy everything. For the first week, I felt amazing. I felt light. I was even okay with the mess of unpacking. I was emotionally okay and ready to takle everything.
However, a week after, we decided to adopt a puppy. We looked for three weekends in a row and every time, I was hard to convince. He would wake up and say “today will be the best day of my life. We get a puppy!” Seeing how happy it made him allowed me to be okay with the idea of adopting. So we did. A day later, my OCD was back. I’d be sitting in the living room and a strong need to throw up would build up in my throat. Everything becomes “hazy” and hard to focus on. A few minutes after supporting this feeling, I’d break down and ask my husband to hug me. This made it all better. But seeing the dog hair everywhere, walking into the apartment smelling like dog, and having to clean up pee would bring this feeling back. I am at my lowest with the OCD. I can’t function. I am a zombie at work and I don’t want to be home. The only way I could be at home last night was by forcing myself to fall asleep.
Tl;dr This morning, I told my husband everything. He hugged me and said it made him sad that I was going through this. However, he said he could not give the dog up. Things escalated and he is now leaving the house. He plans on picking his stuff up tonight and leave with the dog. What do I do? Am I wrong for begging him to take the dog back?
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