In the past year of my relationship I have treated my girlfriend like shit. I get easily frustrated at her and find some things that she does annoying (For example; she starts to tickle me in a play-ish manner but I just sigh and just say "Can you not?")
She always goes out of her way to do things for me and I just take it for granted. I have tried my best to do the same for her but it doesn't feel like I did it because I genuinely wanted to do it but more like: 'she did something for me, now I have to do something for her'
She's the first girlfriend I have had a long term relationship and lost my virginity to (don't know if that's relevant but thought I should add it anyways). Our relationship is going great and we don't really argue all that much but if we do, we usually talk it out afterwards and it's water under the bridge (if that's the correct expression to use).
I love my girlfriend to bits and I would never cheat on her. BUT, I can't control my feelings of wanting to be with another woman. I feel like it's ruining my relationship with my partner as it has gotten a little out of hand. I find myself turning to porn to satisfy these urges but it may be making it worse.
I always have thoughts like "What would it be like to be with this girl" or "I miss the single life where I could pursue any girl I want" and so forth. I've noticed there's a trend in these thoughts. I feel like because of this, I am not treating my partner like I used to and I don't know what to do about it.
Sorry in advance if this post was hard to follow or if I didn't follow the rules or something. This is my first post here and I thought I should give it a try as I don't want to feel like this anymore.
tl;dr I'm not treating my gf of 3 years like I used to when we started dating because I wonder what it's like to be/sleep with someone else
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