My BF (21M) got mad at me (20F) because I feel like I have a higher sex drive than him and tried to talk about it when he was tired and sick. Been together 3 years.

My boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years. I've always subconsciously felt like I've had a higher sex drive than my bf because I find myself hinting at sex to him a lot more than he does to me, I masturbate a lot more and I'm just all round much more horny than he is - by the looks of it. I find myself throwing myself at him sometimes and often he seems uninterested or doesn't pick up on my hints or just continues to do what he was already doing. Now I understand that everyone has responsibilities and things to do during the day but when it's obvious that we can spare some time to have sex, it doesn't seem like he is interested in doing so.

I don't want him to feel like he doesn't satisfy me enough because he really does. Everything he does in the bedroom is amazing but that doesn't mean I'll have a normal sex drive. I've tried explaining to him that I feel like I have a higher sex drive than him but he just gets angry at me. I tried to bring it up today and he started shouting at me and told me that this isn't the time and that he feels way too shitty for this conversation to happen. He got irritated that I brought it up and said that we've spoken about this before but since then, I've noticed the same pattern happening where I'm trying to flirt, trying to be cute and initiating but getting shot down. It just makes me feel like maybe I wasn't doing enough, maybe I'm not pretty enough, why doesn't he want me too. It makes me feel like I want him more than he wants me.

All I wanted was to have an adult conversation about this and find possible solutions or at least just discuss it. I shared my feelings with him but he just shot it down because he felt too sick for this. It doesn't seem fair to me how in the past, he's told me that he feels like he can't share his feelings with me because I react angrily sometimes but here he is doing the exact same thing. It makes me feel small and like my feelings about this aren't valid or don't matter and that my problems are only important when he can be bothered to deal and put up with them. And when he isn't bothered, he tells me to leave him alone and the conversation is ended.

I know we have had conversations about this before but sometimes I do need that reassurance and he hasn't even tried to give it to me. He got mad and irritated and shut me down. I feel hurt and don't know how to proceed. We both ended the conversation badly and abruptly and aren't speaking now, but this is still burning a hole in my head and I don't know what to do about it. It may be good to mention that I have pretty bad anxiety and do overthink a lot of things but I don't see the harm in needing reassurance sometimes. What can I do?

TL;DR: My bf got mad that I think I have a higher libido than him and brought up the conversation when he's sick and tired. He's blaming it on me overthinking but didn't give me any reassurance and told me to leave him alone. How can I proceed?

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