So I recently wrote a post about how me and one of my best friends (both straight dudes) got a bit too comfy on the couch...
After thinking about it and reading over the comments I concluded the whole guy-on-guy cuddling thing is totally normal. Just two friends very comfortable with each other.
Well...Things aren’t so “normal” anymore.
The cuddling/touching has picked up and honestly I think we’re having moments now. Pretty sure there is definitely a “thing” going on now.
We keep exchanging looks at each other. Like the deep gazing/tension filled ones. Seriously it’s the strangest thing. It’s like we’re both enjoying what’s happening yet so confused at the same time. How it even happened I don’t know.
I’m more in touch with my feelings on this, as I said I consider myself straight. I’m physically attracted to women yet more emotionally to dude’s. Not saying I’m not attracted to guys, I just can’t imagine being with one like that... Yet I’m intrigued and not opposed to the idea of everything involved right before that point of things getting serious/physical like the cuddling, handholding, kissing even. It’s weird I know.
He on the other hand is like the straightest guy I know. So I’m sure if he’s sensing what’s going on (and I’m sure he is) he’s even more confused than I am. I could really tell that from last night. We were sitting on the couch, he’d look at me, then sorta stare in the distance-like deep in thought...Catch me looking at him and then do it again.
He’s gotten a bit more distant since the looks and touching has picked up. I could tell he was avoiding sitting next to me last night at first, just keeping his distance. Then he finally did, but sat at the very end of the couch. After awhile tho we scooted together as we always do and starting exchanging the looks again.
It just confusing af because there’s some sort of weird chemistry going on that I think we’re both aware of yet neither one of us are saying anything about.
I don’t want to make things weird and acknowledge it just yet. I just want to see where things go naturally. At the same time I don’t want to confuse him and make him doubt himself, especially when I’d only allow things to progress to a certain extent.
I love him, and I can’t imagine not having him in my life. We both really need each other and I don’t want to ruin what we have. At the same time I also want to see where this new “thing” leads to.
Thoughts?
Forgot to mention. Sometimes when we get close, he starts breathing super heavy. It’s super obvious. Not sure exactly what that means... Nervous, scared, excited?
TL;DR Me and my best friends bromance has reached a new level of complicated tension/chemistry. Not sure what to do next out of fear of risking the friendship
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