I don’t really know where to begin.
I prostituted for several months when I was 18-19. It isn’t something I’m proud of. There was alot of anger and self-loathing in my life at the time and I was in a very bad place.
It went on for about nine months, and basically ended with me trying to end my life.
Things turned around, and I have done much better in the years since. I went back to school, reconnected with my family, and I found an amazing man.
I started dating him about a year and a half ago, and he has always been a perfect dream. He is kind and sweet to me and been every bit the man I never thought I deserved.
I never told him, or anybody else, about the months I spent as a prostitute. I intended it to be a secret I took the the grave.
A few nights ago I was with my family. My brothers and sister and parents are the only ones (I thought) who knew about what went on during that time. We were drinking and somehow we started talking about what happened during that time. It always makes me a little (alot) uncomfortable to talk about, and I made a mention that I wanted to bury it and I had never even told [bf].
My drunk sister looked surprised and told me that he knows. I denied that, but she pushed on and said that yes, he did, because she told him.
I won’t tell you about the freak out that followed but it comes down to, my sister felt my boyfriend should know shortly after he met the family, and she pulled him aside at some family gathering and told him the whole story.
I’m furious with her, a little belatedly, but I’m also confused and suddenly don’t know what to say to boyfriend. Apparently he has known this entire year and a half, and has never said a thing about it to me?
I almost called him mid-freak out but I decided that was not a good idea and I still havent said anything to him.
Like, Im looking back on our whole relationship now and thinking he has freaking known the whole time?!?!
I don’t know how to react to this news. I feel like I have to say something now but I’ve spent so long burying this that I don’t even know how to begin with him.
[Bf] could tell something was bothering me when I saw him this morning, and he keeps asking what is going on, but I’ve been telling him its just a personal thing because I don’t know what else to say.
He has fucking known?!?!?
How do I broach this and clear my head? What do I even say? Why has he never said a thing about this??
TL;DR: My boyfriend has known for our entire year and a half relationship that I used to be a prostitute. I thought it was my closely guarded secret. I’m so confused and don’t even know what to say to him now.
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