Sexual harassment*. I wish I could fix the title.
The wedding happened on Saturday, but only now I remembered that I made a post here asking for help, so I thought I should make a follow up post to let everyone in on what happened and take the opportunity to thank those who gave me advice... it meant a lot. Really!
I didn't go. I couldn't bring myself to do it. The entire thing was too ridiculous and I didn't want to spend a day partying with my dad and his friends after he sexually harassed a woman, so I didn't go. I still feel like the biggest fucking coward for not yelling at the woman and telling her to leave, because the fact that not only they're in a relationship but are also now legally tied to each other stresses me out and it kept me up for a night or two (or three). I was afraid that he would be manipulative with her and I hate how he views her, but I did what I could do. Saturday was close to my one year anniversary with my girlfriend and it also coincided with her grandmother's anniversary, so I used that as an excuse to bail and took a trip to see my girlfriend's family and spend the weekend with her. It was wonderful.
My dad was irritated and disappointed that I couldn't go, but he ended up accepting it and told me to wish my girlfriend's grandma a great birthday (which I did!). I made sure to send them a wedding gift, though, only because I want to build a good relationship with the woman my dad wedded. He's been married before, twice; neither marriage worked out and both women were significantly younger than he is, so I doubt this marriage will be any different, but hearing first hand about how my dad behaved towards another woman made me concerned, so I still want this woman he married to know that she can count on me for anything.
As to how my relationship with my dad will be from now on... the same way it has been since always, I think. We weren't terribly close while I was growing up, and as a kid and a teenager I felt more like he was that occasional buddy with whom you'll sometimes hang out with and drown your sorrows over drinks. Not a good analogy to refer to my childhood, but that's the way I feel like our relationship is. I don't think it will change. I will keep living my life and stopping by to say "hi" sometimes and occasionally celebrate holidays together. I'll focus more on the person I want to be, which is nothing like who he is - and it pains me to write this - or the man I was up until a while ago. I wish we could have a different relationship and I wish he was a better person, but I can't change a 50 year old man. All I can do is work on who I am, and I've been bettering myself and am excited for what the future will bring.
Again, thank you. :)
tl;dr: I didn't attend the wedding. I went to my girlfriend's home state. I did send a wedding gift.
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